so what does it mean to die?
this is not to write a last will and testament because i do not have anything to leave anyway...
this is to remind me of the many realities in dying to self for the sake of others...so that i may live...

ayokong mamatay lang ng basta-basta...gusto ko kapag namatay ako yun bang tahimik lang pero inaasahan na...expected...so that people will not be surprised and i will have a chance to ask forgiveness and to offer forgiveness din if ever...but this is not what i really want to talk or write about...i believe i am not scared of dying...it's more of the fear to leave those who are important to me...those whom i love and have come to love...

but this death is necessary...not for my sake but for the sake of those i love...because only in dying to myself do i become alive for others...to put them first ahead of me...this is the call i've said yes to...do i dare turn my back from it...

but how can i talk of dying when i myself have not really died...marami pa ring aspeto ng buhay ko na kailangang ako ang mauna...di pa ako natututo...

kaya nga talagang agony ito...mahirap...masakit...masaklap...

let me write...
of the many ways the Lord has been faithful to m e...
of the reasons why i continue to live & serve
of the evidences of grace & faithfulness
of the unfailing love i always feel & experience
of the songs that keep me alive & sane
of the adventures i g o through for each week
of the people i have come to love & to appreciate
of the friends i have gained...
of the bless ings i have recei ved
of the smiles i have witnessed...
let me write...or else i will sing